Thankful Thursday: Internal Reflection

thankfulthursAs the holidays approach, I begin my internal reflection on what I am grateful and thankful for this time of year. Yes, of course, I’m thankful for my husband, family, friends, & Murph, but there are a lot of other things I’m thankful for too. I am also taking part in Amanda’s 30 Days of Thanks Challenge. Check out her blog at Diary of a Semi-Health Nut.

I’m thankful to finally be comfortable with myself. For years, I struggled with social anxiety (and still do to some degree), always thinking I had to act and dress a certain way for others to like me. I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin for much of high school. Then college came and I discovered- Hey! If I drink I become this really outgoing, social person! The person I always wanted to be! Unfortunately, it only lowered my self-esteem and made me regret many things in the end (Ahem, where did my phone go? I broke another camera?!). Once I got over the “cool” going out and drinking phase, I discovered that I’m happy with who I am. I’m not a social butterfly….and that’s OK! Now more than ever, I want to do things that make me happy. Life is way too short to be doing things to solely please others.

I’m thankful for my upbringing. I feel very fortunate to have had two parents that truly cared about me. I always thought my mom was overprotective (which she was), but I’m realizing now as I get closer to contemplating parenthood, that those acts were out of love and concern. If my mom was still here today, I’d tell her how happy I am she cared so much. I’d also tell her that one day, when I have my own child, I will be just as overbearing.  Thanks, Mom.

296016_879634873096_1201841277_nI’m thankful to not have succumbed to despair after my mom’s passing. There aren’t checklists for surviving after a loved one has passed. I could’ve been overcome with the devastation of losing such an integral part of my life. I could’ve shut out everyone else and self-medicated. Instead, I chose to lean on my family. I understand that losing her is not something I “get over”. It’s something I accept.


My dad and I at my mom’s memorial bench outside of the school she worked at.

It was hard to hear the words, “I’m sorry,” after Mom’s passing because all I wanted to yell out of frustration was, “You had nothing to do with it. This isn’t your fault. There’s nothing to be sorry for.” I also hated thinking that others would feel sorry for me. At the same time, I realize there just aren’t words to be said that are appropriate. Honestly, it was those who said nothing that helped the most in our time of need. I’m thankful that though I miss my mom immensely, I haven’t given up on life. It will be difficult to raise my own children without her, something I never envisioned myself doing, but I know I will do it because I had the best “teacher” to learn from. My mom’s jest for life was unlike anyone elses. I’m thankful to have her memory to pass on to my own kids one day.

What are you thankful for today?

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Thankful Thursday


I think it’s important to take reflection time each day; each week to remember what we’re thankful for. Thanksgiving is approaching which usually spurs these thoughts, but taking small moments throughout the year has value as well.


I’ve noticed lately how much my mind races throughout the day. I’m constantly thinking about something that already happened or something that’s going to happen. It’s not too often I take time to live “in the moment” and relax. The last 5 minutes of Centergy class is one of the few moments throughout my week that I just sit and breathe. It is namely referred to as the “restore” track. I never knew how hard it is to not think. I have to picture my mind as a chalkboard and any thought that comes into my head, I simply erase. I am thankful for those 5 minutes to just be.


I am thankful to be able to sweat. The actual being sweaty part I could do without {obviously}, but I kinda love it when sweat pours down my face. It’s a reminder how much my body is capable of and how much injustice I do my body by sitting during my day. My body was made to MOVE, to WORK, and to SWEAT. I am thankful to finally understand this.

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I found this quote at the beginning of the school year and it sums up how I important I feel my job is.

quote-the-limits-of-my-language-are-the-limits-of-my-mind-all-i-know-is-what-i-have-words-for-ludwig-wittgenstein-355418Who would we be without words to express ourselves? I think about this every day as I treat kiddos with severe cognitive disabilities. I am thankful to have found a job {speech language pathology} I am passionate about. I am thankful for my education, my upbringing, and that I have the opportunity to make a difference; to help kids with such a basic need- to communicate. It kind of gives me chills. 🙂


farmersmarketThis summer I frequented the farmer’s market practically every Saturday morning. I am thankful to be able to buy fresh, local produce. It’s not really surprising how much better fresh food tastes and how much better I feel when eating clean. I used to eat a lot of processed foods, not really thinking about what I was putting in my body (i.e., chips, crackers, pretzels). At that time, I didn’t care. I’m much more conscious of what I put in my body now. I want and need to supply my body with nourishing foods to sustain energy for my day and exercise.

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What are you thankful for this Thursday?


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